It’s possible that you are searching for a sense of belonging stemming from your childhood, when you moved around a lot. Don’t rush this decision
I’m torn between two places – London (my current home) and New Zealand, where my parents and sibling live. I’m a mixed race 29-year-old female, and moved around a lot as a child. My family settled in New Zealand when I was eight despite having zero connections there. In my early 20s, I left home to move to Australia, then London. Initially, I never wanted to go back to New Zealand as I felt isolated there as a teenager.
When I first moved to London I started with nothing, but eventually landed a great job and developed close friendships. This took time and was not easy, especially in the midst of a pandemic. Now the friendships I have over here feel more gratifying than many of those I had growing up.
